1st day of school.seriously wasting of time coming to school today.I didn't know there's SW today and i didn't bring anything to school.just myself.as usual we were late.many did not bring their SW attire so it was cancelled.Phew!haha.we had 3hrs free before our next lesson which starts at 1.went outside to eat and then went back to school.n oh!our timetable change again.damn.aku tk suke timetable baru!whole weeks straight starts at 8 in the morning!except for wed.baru nak happy2 with the new timetable sekali tukar.haiyaaaa...

• Monday>8-3
• Tuesday>8-1
• Wednesday>10-4(if there's CAH then it starts at 8.DAMN!)
• Thursday>8-1
• Friday>8-12

i prefer the last term timetable.heh.as it starts mostly 9.and fri timetable is the best!10-1.how nice it is.haha.8 is too early in the morning!lucky im staying quite near.i pity the rest of the classmates.hahaha.kesian ehk korang!kena bangun pagi2..heeee...

oh last fri this schoolmates came to my house to beraya.7 of them total.the IPP serang my house.lucky only 7 people.they were wan, sham, syah, zoe, ayu, nana, min.kalau ramai i think mama bankrupt.coz she so kind kasi my frens who came to our house to raya green packets.$4 somemore.lols.you're being to nice ma.next time kasi $2 je da cukup.bdk2 da besar kena dpt sikit je.anyways thanks for ber-raya-ing at my house.hahaha....

oh ytd i went to dad's place at Taman Jurong.far from amk.it was nice to see the step family again though this time i feel VERY AWKWARD.its been awhile since i last went there.i think i went there was last year during raya.chit chat with step mum.and then with step bros'.dad was still sleeping when we came around 2+.he said he just went back home that afternoon after his work.so yea.well i kinda miss dad.and i feel damn awkward talking to him.i donno why.maybe coz the bonding is vanishing.what to do.everyone is busy.

dad talked to Mubarak(my 1st adik) coz he buat perangai again.i just can't understand him.i really hate him.i know hes my flesh and blood.but his attitude suck big time!i really can't bear to see mama cry.our family is like tonggang terbalik.no use scolding him coz he disrespect elders yet he shouted to us.he did abuse me before ok.no use fighting back.coz hes stronger.hes only 16 and taking O's this year for goodness sake!i can feel how hurt mama is.everytime they quarelled,everyone become upset.and everytime i see mama cry,my tears always roll down my cheeks automatically.i know mama is having a really hard time bringing us up single parent since we were young till now.with our attitude all.she still standing strong now though shes having some sickness.i really pity mama.mama cried the whole day ytd.till her dada sakit,i can feel it.coz ive been there.fighting with bro.sungguh menyakitkan.mama stay strong ok?we don't show we care.but deep in our heart we know we care for each other.I LOVE YOU MAMA.

k.sorry for emoing.but that is me.i don't usually share my family problems.but this time i couldn't take it.i need to take it all out.so i could feel better.well u see me so cheerful person.but god knows what it is deep inside me.i am an emotional person if you people wanna know.